Do you ever stop and think about the ways the Lord shows you His hand each and every day? Sometimes it’s in the big things and sometimes it’s so small you might miss it.
Yesterday evening, I realized that I had let a medication run out that I needed right away. My precious, patient husband and I went to both of the pharmacies near us and neither one of them had what I needed. In fact, one of them told us it wasn’t available in Lebanon anymore. What?! I was already frustrated at myself for waiting until the last minute and it was getting late in the evening and my poor husband had a long day already. However, he was so sweet to keep driving to find the medication for me. As we were driving I was complaining that we would have to drive 25 minutes or so to a bigger pharmacy. We stopped at three different ones and no luck. At the fourth pharmacy we stopped, thinking they probably wouldn’t have it. My sweet husband went in and came out with the medication!! As he got in the car he said, “It was already on the counter as if waiting for us”.
I smiled and thought, I know Who was waiting for us.
It seems like something so small, but in that moment I felt the Lord whispering, “Why do you fret, my child? I am here and I am capable. You matter to me, your needs matter to me. Rest in me.”
I watched a movie today that really tugged at my heart. It was one of those days where I had a lot on my mind and just wanted to kind of escape for a bit. When it started I just thought it was a nice story but by the time it was over I was in tears.
The movie is called “Brooklyn” and it is about an Irish immigrant who goes to America in the 1950s. She soon falls in love and has to choose between the tugging of her heart from her home and her new life in America. The byline is “Two countries, two loves, one heart”. This resonated with me because of how I met my husband and how we wove together two countries and made them one heart as well.
What surprised me was how I related to the emotions of the character. She loves her family and her country but she also finds new love and connections in a new country.
When I moved to Lebanon it was so hard for me to leave my parents, siblings and friends. The aching in my heart hurt so much though I loved my life with my husband and wanted to fit in as much as possible in my new life. Well, it’s been almost 3 years and I can say that I really have come a long way and I really feel this is my home. I have been learning the language, understanding the customs and really falling in love with this country every day. My heart is wherever I am with my husband and no matter where we live, that will be home.
At the end of the movie, the words of the character stayed with me: “You’ll feel so homesick that you’ll want to die, and there’s nothing you can do about it apart from endure it. But you will, and it won’t kill you… and one day the sun will come out and you’ll realize that this is where your life is”.